Inspiration

Musical inspiration seems to be always right, after all is said and done. It can only happen that it is not there, that we move away from it or that we can't listen ideally, or that our focus is wandering, or that we lose touch with it. Therefore our musical output is not always good. But when inspiration is there, what it says and does is 100 % right. So it is the best teacher to me.

White Vision

Feeling like being In the center of the world...

...that happens to me when I listen to Dvořák's Stabat Mater.
I feel like I could hold the heart of the world in my hand.
I feel in touch with the heart of the world.
I don't remember any other music that struck me like this one.

It's not only pain, it's the same amount of joy also! For instance because I know certainly that Maria (the mother of Jesus) was (is) wise enough to see everything, the whole picture, and not only "her loss" and the pain and suffering! And for instance because I know that on the "other side" of so called "sad" music (well it's actually not the other side, you need just to listen patiently enough to get that it's all one) There is just a bigger joy than before, the joy of real power and the joy of real freedom and completeness.

Courage

Wise courage! But courage!

full self-actualization...

might be only achievable through a sort of self-sacrifice. A scary thought. It came to me during one of those "final" drives, one of these "no way back" ways...

Once more I am on the verge of self-sacrifice in support of self-actualization. And once again only my musical goals, which are at the same time my overall goals, seem to remain, seem to even get stronger inside of me. But still---I need time. Lots of.

Day by day

Actually I think these days that I must seem to be quite "boring" to many people, especially if they don't know me in person, because I'm just working, every day, I have nothing specifical to say besides my music, and this music is something that needs a lot of work, for years.
I am working on my next concert project, it will be between "centuries" and "steps" and it will be a piano solo program like the previous two ones.

I AM really grateful to some special individuals and it wouldn't be fair to say that I forgot anything, I'm thinking of it every single day.

I am just inwards, breeding and working on musical stuff and sometimes I feel just like I haven't got enough time to accomplish all that I need/want....

A la recherche du temps perdu...

...I have found a few single words and a song from the middle ages:

Lo Bouie: (Le Bouvier, chanson traditionelle occidentale)

„Quan serey morto, reboun me

Al pus founs de la cava,

Metme los pes a la pared,

Lo cap jous la canelo.

Tots los romieus qua passaran

Prendran aigo senhado… “

So few....

I also found the melody...:

I hope I can use it for an improv and post here some day....